Tuesday, 13 December 2016

Borrowed Time

Back in September, I retired from 11 a side football & wrote a long, impassioned blog about it(http://payaso-de-mierda.blogspot.co.uk/2016/09/full-time.html); now recently published Stand issue #20 has printed this edited version -:


In June 2001, aged almost 37, I believed I’d completed my final season of 11-a-side football. Having spent two academic years working in Slovakia, and more importantly keeping goal for the expatriate Bratislava Academicals club, I’d decided to return home. Of rather more immediate concern was securing paid employment in the day job than finding a team to play for, though I did pick up a couple of regular 5-a-side kickabouts each week, topped up with infrequent challenge matches at work. 

Consequently it was something of a bolt from the blue when my mate Hezza asked if I fancied a game in the North East Over 40s League in late summer 2005, as his team’s regular keeper was on holiday. Formed in 1979, the league consists of 5 divisions of 16 teams, extending from Richmond in North Yorkshire to Ashington in Northumberland, giving well over 1,000 blokes in their 40s, 50s, sometimes 60s and very occasionally 70s, the chance to play competitive football at 10.30 every Saturday morning for 8 months of the year, with the only concessions for age being 5 roll-on / roll-off substitutes and a truncation of the game to 80 minutes.  It’s a deadly serious business; you have to provide your passport as proof of age before you can be registered.  Ringers and wrong’uns, as well as culpable secretaries, get sine die bans if caught.

So it was on Saturday 20th August 2005, over 4 years since I’d last stood in front of a full sized set of goals in a properly competitive context, I made my debut for Heaton Winstons (aka Wallsend Winstons aka Wallsend Boys Club Veterans) in Division 4 of the Mill View WMC Over 40s League, away to The Welcome Inn at Blue House Fields in Hendon, Sunderland (the original home of SAFC in 1879 no less) and conceded half a dozen unanswered goals. We changed by the side of the pitch. New players were introduced to old campaigners in the warm up. The only person I knew was Hezza.  I was a bag of nerves, but couldn’t be blamed for any of the goals as the opposition, a right bunch of hairy arsed Mackem radgies, steamrollered us. At full time, everyone paid £4 subs. I loved every second of it, despite the result.

The following week, with John the regular keeper still away, I kept my place as we went to top flight Cramlington Burton House in the whole league Villa Real Cup. This time I felt a little less terrified about playing, partly because we took the lead after about 15 seconds; I can still see skinny Robbie Morrow, a whippet of a winger, scampering down the touch line, then slinging in a cross for Brian Jones, a secondary school deputy head rather than his more exotic, iconic namesake, to power a header home from the penalty spot. I made a couple of really smart stops, but class told and we eventually lost 3-1, which was no disgrace.

Week 3; we are away again, this time in the League to Hartlepool Navy Club on a pitch absolutely decimated by mole activity. John the regular keeper is back, but it’s agreed we play a half each. Tim, our bouffant-haired professional trombonist left back, takes a free kick on the halfway line. It sails into the box, lands on a molehill and proceeds to die, scuttling along the floor and apologetically dribbling into the net. We’re still giggling about it at half time when we change round a goal up. I go off for John, who proceeds to concede 3 absolute jokes in 10 minutes, before we get a late consolation. The full time inquest concludes that, as we’ll be back to full strength next week as the holiday season is over, there’s no need for panic; especially as our manager Ash is heading to Spain for a month. This means our secretary steps in as boss; he’s called Dave and is a solicitor. John the keeper is a solicitor as well. Perhaps that’s why he shrugs off his howlers. Consequently, I got 2 more games in goal that whole season when John was on his February skiing break, though I found myself playing in a variety of outfield roles as an emergency substitute when we were severely depleted, on about a dozen occasions. That becomes my signature role; unused spare keeper, flag waving assistant ref and bit part sub. Meanwhile m’learned friend in nets concedes an average of 3 goals a game, at least one being a lob and another at his near post.

We finished 4th bottom that year. In 2006/2007 we secured the antepenultimate berth. Thereafter, we went on a recruitment drive and signed some less than terrible players, to finish 6th in 2007/2008. The tough thing about the bottom division is that each season a couple of new clubs, often from sizeable communities, generally consisting of Sunday morning teams who have grown old together, join and more often than not, run away with the league, while teams higher up find they’re just too old and pack in. As a result occasionally more than 3 teams are promoted to fill up the gaps; in 07/08 the top 5 went up. We missed out by a point and it looked like our ship had sailed, as in the following years we finished 8th, 9th, 11th, 12th and 9th again. In all those seasons, bar an extended run in 08/09 when John was out injured from January onwards, I played a maximum of 6 games a season, but remained involved as webmaster, treasurer and linesman. I was the archetypal clubman; the spare keeper at one of the worst sides in the region.

However, summer 2013 saw a revolution at Winstons. We moved pitches from the sometimes swamplands, often dustbowl Paddy Freeman’s pitches in High Heaton, where one end of season home game had to be postponed when we discovered the council had rotovated the goalmouths without telling us, to the Bigges Main home of the legendary Wallsend Boys’ Club. A subtle change of name from Heaton to Wallsend Winstons enabled us to recruit half a dozen top quality, youngish players; blokes I’d paid money to watch in the Northern Alliance and Northern League. Fellas who’d turned out for my club Newcastle Benfield in the past, like Tom Rantoul who got 46 goals that season, the same as his strike partner Chris Arnott.  Wallsend lads, who looked upon it as an honour to represent their home town.

One of the new arrivals was former Percy Main keeper Ian Hall; a fitness fanatic who dominated his area and specialised in top drawer saves. I couldn’t hold a candle to him. Sometimes you just know when it is time to go and I prepared for retirement. Suddenly John the keeper announced he “wasn’t standing on the touchline for anyone” and transferred to Mill View WMC, meaning I resumed my place as back-up keeper. Except Hally then broke his foot in our season-opening cup tie win over South Shields Catholic Club. The result was I was back between the posts for the next 8 games. As a keeper I’ve always prided myself on good reactions, safe handling and decent kicking, but I’m lousy in the air when it comes to crosses and ponderously slow. Despite this, we won every one, scored loads and I had virtually nothing to do as we roared to a league and cup double, winning the league by 27 points. The trophy was presented live on Football Focus, in a special edition from Wallsend Boys’ Club. To paraphrase Larkin, I’d never known success so whole and unexpected. Hally would go off for me whenever the game was clearly won; I really appreciated the way he thought about me. It hadn’t been like that before.  

In 2014/2015, we missed promotion by 2 points, but won the higher divisional cup. In 2015/2016, the cup remained in our possession and we eased to promotion as runners-up. In the last game of the season, I played instead of Hally, keeping a clean sheet in an almost unheard of goalless draw.  For the first time ever, I was named Man of the Match. During the summer, I celebrated my 52nd birthday and the club changed its name to Wallsend Boys Club Over 40s. With Hally on his jollies, I joined the hallowed ranks of Alan Shearer, Michael Carrick, Steve Bruce, Lee Clark and Alan Thompson, debuting for “the Boyza” in a 2-1 loss to Newton Aycliffe Cobblers’ Hall in the Villa Real Cup. Neither goal was my fault.

August 20th 2016 marked the 11th anniversary of my first appearance; things had changed a bit in the interim period in terms of playing strength. We went in 8-0 up against Gateshead Team Club, so I came on for Hally as part of wholesale changes to give everyone a run out. The final score was 10-0 and, in all honesty, I didn’t even touch the ball. I remained sub not used in subsequent weeks as we defeated Pelton Crown 4-2 away and Hartlepool Catholic Club 4-1 at home on the first Saturday in September, but didn’t worry as I knew Hally was away for the following weekend we were due to play North Shields Pineapple.

I’d not been well in the week leading up to the Hartlepool fixture; the tail end of a summer cold had given way to a chest infection which, allied to my constant intimations of mortality, in the shape of clicking, arthritic knees and incessant lower back pain from a dodgy SI joint, had me beat. I’d come in from work on the Friday, worn out and struggling for breath as I sat down to take my shoes off. There was no other explanation for my decrepitude; I was actually feeling properly old for the first time in my life. Allied to that, I somehow managed to forget my boots that morning and had been forced to root through the bag of abandoned kit for a pair that were almost the right fit. Half a size too large, they chafed my heel, leaving a blood blister that lasted the following week.

Limping back to the changers, manager Ash introduced me to Davy, a decade my junior, 4 inches taller and 5 stones lighter, who I was told “will be playing in nets next week.” Three years on from my presumed retirement, this time I knew the game really was up. Clubs at our level don’t have third choice keepers, so I shook hands and wished him all the best, before announcing my immediate retirement, except in dire emergencies.

This decision wasn’t a strop or a sulk; it was made in the best interests of the team. It was also a decision made for my best interests, as I realised the process of ageing catches up on us all. In my 11 years with Winstons, I must have played with the thick end of 100 players; only 1 of them (no names, no pack drill) I really didn’t get on with. In all that time Ash has been the manager, while only 4 of us who played against The Welcome Inn still show up now. Aidan, still getting his game in centre midfield, is 56; Rod is 67 in November and will always make himself available when we’re short, while Trev is 61 and made 2 appearances last year but still comes along to watch. Like the latter pair, I’m still determined to follow the lads representing the club I’ve been proud to call my own for more than a decade.

In contrast to my first appearance, Davy saved a penalty as we won 4-1 against North Shields Pineapple, but was on the line the week after when we went joint top after beating Darsley Park 3-1. I saw both games, held the flag, kicked every ball and punched the air when we scored. It’s in the blood you see.

I haven’t retired from playing completely; 6-a-sides on Monday and Thursday will continue until I physically can’t play any longer. There are still 2 pairs of £50 keeper gloves and a brace of proper keeper tops and bottoms to get full use from. However, I have rationalised and thinned out the amount of kit in the bottom of the wardrobe. Rolls of tape, spare laces, boot spanners and a plethora of half empty tubes of tiger balm; all gone to charity, recycling or land fill. In some ways it reminded me of emptying my dad’s wardrobe after his passing.  The essential difference between death and retirement, is that my departure from the 11-a-side game is both voluntary and without regrets.

Over 40s football gave me not only 3 winners’ medals (my only previous one was from the D&P Garages Trophy from Sunday football in 1993), but endless glorious memories (penalty saves against Willow Pond in 2008 and Darsley Park in 2013, a goal as an emergency striker versus Peterlee Helford in February 2007) of minor triumphs, close friendships, endless mickey taking, lots of serious drinking and an unbreakable bond of belonging that I’ll take to my grave.


Winstons, I gave you everything for 11 years, but I gained an infinite amount more in return and for that I’m eternally grateful.

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